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Work Ignited My Alcoholism

How did the drinking for you start? I, like a lot of people, started experimenting with drugs and alcohol in high school and college. I actually preferred pot more in college and was more of a pot head. But once I graduated and was in the working world, it became much more acceptable to go out for cocktails after work. When I got married and had my first child, it was way more socially acceptable to go to the liquor store and get a bottle of wine versus risking getting arrested from having pot, so I stuck to drinking. It was pretty much relegated to the weekends at first. Then, after I had my first child, I was a freelance writer and stay-at-home-mom. Juggling those two things and trying to be a good parent while paying attention to my writing and my child, was very stressful. I felt like I wasnít doing anything well, and I was alone all the time. Even though I was with my child, I was lacking in adult conversation and adult contact. Before I knew it, at the end of the day, I started rewarding myself with alcohol. It started out with a glass of wine before my husband came home, then a glass or two with dinner and escalated from there. Was it always just wine? I was treating myself with a glass of wine while I was cooking dinner. I was dressing it up and making it part of this nice evening. But then, my cousin (who also has a drinking problem) started coming over, and we started drinking together around 4 or 5 p.m., right around the time that I was starting to prepare dinner. He was a bourbon drinker, which I didnít like, so we compromised on vodka. That started the whole martini process. It felt very posh, sophisticated and grown-up. Where was your child while you were drinking each night? He was with us. I was living in a house at the time that had a big family room and open kitchen. He would be playing with his toys, while I was cooking dinner and my cousin was sitting at the island drinking. How did your husband react when he got home at night? My husband came from a family of alcoholics, so my behavior was normal for him. But he didnít like how drunk I was. He thought I drank too much and didnít like that my cousin was always over. When heíd walk in the door, there was me drinking with my cousin, and we were both loaded. He said that he didnít want to come home to a drunk wife all the time. About that point, I had become very uncomfortable with my drinking too. I was going to bed drunk every night and feeling lousy every day. It was terrible.

Postť ŗ: 05:09, 22/05/2017